Can't

Yet another opportunity

I've pushed away from

One of the countless times

I’ve lost without starting

I just stand there and stare

At them

Singing… playing…

Effortlessly

Self contained and so secure

While I’ve suddenly become mute

And I try to find a reason

To get away from the music,

From the tears welling up in my eyes

I’m not original

But neither are they

Then why does my voice

Just die away?

I’m suddenly so small

Can’t bear the thought of music

So scared…

to hear my voice…

…breaking

Music is good for the soul, isn’t it?

Then why does it do this to me?

Bringing out the worst…

…fear and misery

Should I just take a vow of silence?

And quit trying to try

Quit thinking

That maybe this time

Will be different

And save myself from

The embarrassing ordeal

Just quit..

You gave me everything

Why couldn't you give me

just a little bit of courage

to hear my own voice

sing

?